WHY I STARTED THIS BLOG

This was me in January. 

On June, 2009 I was diagnosed with Mixed Connective Tissue Disease. It's an autoimmune disorder that affects the surrounding tissues in my body from my kidneys, liver, heart you name it. I have what's called overlapping anti bodies so what is happening is my body is fighting itself. The very thing that is made to fight off diseases is fighting each other causing me to have a lot of pain, swelling and it makes me very fatigue. 

In 2011 I was laid off from my job that I was working at for 12yrs and I am still unemployed. I am currently debating on whether I should file for disability. I just can't imagine myself being on disability. I was inspired to do this blog because Nick Cannon have something similar to what I have and he created a blog called NCredible Health Hustle. He is taking tons of meds and not always following the doctors orders (i.e.boxing exercise) but the best thing is, he is trusting in the Lord for getting back to health.

Well, I was inspired by that. I have two other Christian blogs and I decided to create one more blog regarding health. From looking at his blog, I realize that when we are unhealthy, it not only affect us physically, but it also affects us mentally, emotionally and some times spiritually. It really helps when you have a great support team behind you.

My mother, I love her to death. She is a fighter. She is a cancer survivor. She is a divorce survivor. She has been through it all. She's a peace maker, a councilor, a motivator, a leader, a prayer warrior. But one thing she is having a hard time handling is my health situation. It's tough because she loves her kids so much and don't want to hear or see us suffer and that is the main reason why I don't really call as much as I would like to. I don't want her to feel bad so I try to only call her when I am feeling good. That's with my friends also. I only want to chat or talk when I am feeling really good so that they will not feel awkward or have that I don't know what to say pause trying to figure out how to end the call. 

As long as I am my perky usual self, then all is right with the world. 

I am a Born Again Christian who trust in the Lord for everything. Sometimes my mom want me to do things and if I say I am not feeling well, she get upset asking why do I say I'm going to do something and then back out. I don't know how many ways I can say that I didn't back out, I am sick. There is a difference. Sometimes they just don't get it! I'm in a catch 22 situation, I trust in the Lord for everything including my health, but it appears to be a sin if I say that I am sick. I can't lie. I am sick "in my body", but I don't believe that it is permanent. I believe I will get better, in the mean time, I am sick. I can't lie. When the people in the bible were sick, they did not lie, they were sick. Currently, I am not under a doctor because, I lost my job (laid off). I also lost my car in an auto accident and I lost my best friend and pastor and this all happened last year. I am not depressed but I do have some limits. I am still high in spirit but I am dealing with all this (body pain) with no Meds. I will be back in high gear once I am back on the medication because I still had pain but not as great. But, at least I will not be as weak and tired. 

Well, I'm not going to take all this illness lying down. I have been so blessed with what I was able to accomplish spiritually while I've been home reading, studying, and taking classes so I'm not just sitting around doing nothing, as some would like to think. Then there is my facebook games and neighbors who rely on me to help them daily (LOL). Yeah they are great.  

My children are great also. Michael and Jessica. They are 26 and 24. I am 40 something. They have been very helpful to me. My focus right now is to fight this with the complete help of the LORD. But, I also have to do my part. I must take care of my mind, body and soul. I am going to find out what foods are best for me to eat, how to keep stress at a minimal, and exercise tips that will help me. I am going to keep a weekly video progress report. Until next week, everyone take care, God bless you and I love you.

Angela R. Ingram